I’m constantly trying to be better, to be kinder, smarter, happier, less afraid, more confident, less angry at the past, more thankful, and so on.

Constantemente trato de ser mejor, más buena, más lista, más feliz, menos temerosa, más confiada, menos enojada con el pasado, más agradecida, y así.

I try to find ways to meassure my happiness, did I read today? did I take care of myself? did I skip my work out? (tbh I have been skipping them for the past two weeks), I create charts and logs where I can meassure how fully I am enjoying life, was I sociable today? what am I thankful for? and if I’m not feeling that thankfulness, am I a bad person?

Intento encontrar maneras de medir mi felicidad ¿leí hoy? ¿me cuidé? ¿me salté mi ejercicio? (siendo honesta me lo he saltado las últimas dos semanas), creo tablas y reportes donde mido qué tanto estoy disfrutando la vida ¿fui sociable hoy? ¿por qué estoy agradecida hoy? y si no me siento así ¿soy una mala persona?


I don’t know when I started obsessing over those things, making lists, charts, logs, journal entries, thankfulness jars, little reminders to meassure every aspect of life, did you take your pills? How much water did I drink this past week? All I know is that these kind of trackers help me feel put together, is it just an illusion? I don’t know, but they help me keep my anxiety in check.

No sé en qué momento me empecé a obsesionar con esas cosas, hacer listas, tablas, reportes, entradas en mi diario, botes de gratitud, pequeños recordatorios de medir cada aspecto de la vida ¿tomaste tus medicinas? ¿cuánta agua bebí la semana pasada? Todo lo que sé es que ésta clase de cosas me ayudan a sentir que mi vida está en orden, ¿será sólo una ilusión? no lo sé, pero me ayudan a manejar mi ansiedad.

Am I happier cause all my hangers look the same? Probably not. Is my life easier cause all my clothes are color sorted and face the same way in my closet? No, it isn’t, it’s actually a waste of time, but it works for me, it gives me some sort of peace, is that crazy? yes, do I care? no.

¿Que si soy más feliz porque todos mis ganchos son iguales? Probablemente no. ¿Es mi vida más fácil porque toda mi ropa está acomodada por color y viendo en la misma dirección? No, no lo es, de hecho quita mucho tiempo, pero me funciona, me da algo de paz ¿es algo loquísimo? Sí. ¿Me importa? No.

I try to be the best version of myself every single day, somedays I can do it, some days I can’t but that’s okay, I like having these little quirks about myself that help me get through the day, so I’ll create another to do list, another chart and another hydration log cause these are the things that make me, me.

Intento ser la mejor versión de mí cada día, algunos lo logro, otros no, pero está bien, me gustan estas peculiaridades que tengo que me ayudan a sobrellevar los días, así que creo otra lista de cosas por hacer, otra tabla y otro reporte de hidratación porque son esas rarezas las que me hacen yo.

What quirks do you have that refuse to let go of?

¿Qué rarezas tienes que no quieres cambiar?



  1. I love this post… I’m the exact same constantly “monitoring” my happiness. But i do think it helps; even just as a reminder to myself “you are important and your happiness amtters so do he damn things to make sure you stay happy”. Loving the hair btw xx

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  2. Haha!! I totally get it! Sometimes it’s not whether the quirks (sometimes considered OCD hee-hee) add value, it’s the peace and happiness you get from them.
    When I work out I have this habit of counting in 4s.
    I don’t know WHY but for some reason, it makes my sets seem less daunting. So for ex: If I have to do a set of 12 reps, instead of counting from 1-12, I’ll count 1-4, then 1-4 and then a final 1-4. And for some reason, that helps me move through them faster because it doesn’t seem like I have such a long way to go as if it would if i had to count all the way up to 12 to be done.

    I’m sure that makes no sense but oh well!!
    Love the loafers boo ❤

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  3. creo que todos hacemos cosas que para cada uno es lo que nos pueden dar paz o felicidad, a veces no nos damos cuenta pero que repetimos día con día, en este momento no puedo decir cuales son mis rarezas y se que tengo varias, me encanta como describes tu lucha diaria, me encanta que seas mi hija y hoy por hoy te amo mas .

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  4. I feel the same sometimes, trying to have a productive day and feel like you are being your best self. Don’t be too hard on yourself though! I definitely think I should start getting up earlier, doing some meditation, getting my day off to a good start!! xxx

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  5. Oh Dani, your powder pink hair goes so well with the light grey over-sized jumper!
    What a great article! I’m also working on how to be less angry and be more chill.., thank you for reminding!
    Enjoy the rest of your week!

    Viv X

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